12.09.2011

Weird Feeling

Today feels weird.  All my fellow piano majors are currently doing or have already finished their piano jury (end of semester performance for professors), and I'm not doing one.  This is all because of my carpal tunnel syndrome (curse you, wrist).  It's actually feeling a whole lot better, thanks to a really good doctor and a priesthood blessing, but it basically left me unable to practice for 3 weeks.  And with those 3 weeks occurring right at the critical practicing period, I was unable to get ready to perform.  I was rather frustrated at first, because I had been working so hard this semester! I practiced more than I ever have (which the doc said was probably part of the reason I got carpel tunnel... awesome) and I felt closer to being ready waaaaay sooner than I have in past semesters.  It was a great feeling for a while, cause I'm the queen of procrastination.  When I realized I wouldn't be able to do my jury, it almost felt like all my hard work was just thrown down the drain.

But surprisingly, it's kind of been a hidden blessing.  I've had a lot more time to study for my finals (and for blogging. have you noticed? ha).  I've also had time to think about my life and set some new goals for myself. People, I have been exercising every single day except Sunday for the past two weeks! Go me! I feel so good. And I've also realized that I can do hard things -- like getting a music degree! I'm not kidding when I say it is tough. People may think it's a wimpy major or "just a hobby" but trust me, it's HARD. This semester has been insanely difficult academically. And, although having carpel tunnel has really been a bummer, I'm glad that I'm able to devote a lot of time to studying. I'm gonna ace those finals (hopefully)!  Good luck to all of you who are getting ready for finals as well! Only a few more days and we are home free for a beautiful Christmas break. Woot woot!

1 comment:

Rebecca Ann said...

Ashley your attitude is super, so happy you are able to see the blessing with your wrist problem. You are to blessed to be stressed young lady. Keep up the hard work. And I also love that man President Hinckley , still miss him, he said things that were just for me.

Look forward to hearing how your finals go.