11.02.2012

"You want to be in love in a movie!"

{warning: cheesiness ahead.}
Alright, I'm extremely behind the times.  Like, almost 20 years behind. I just watched Sleepless in Seattle for the first time the other night, and I totally loved it! Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan are so good together. So many people have told me it's a fantastic movie and that I needed to watch it, but sometimes I'm stubborn and when people recommend things to me, I resist.  Then, when I finally partake, I end up loving it just like they said I would! Silly me. Anyway, as I was cuddled up in my bed watching this delightful flick, I heard the line, "You don't want to be in love, you want to be in love in a movie!" and it was like they were reading my mind.

My entire life, I've been enamored with romance.  From the time I was a little girl, I was enticed by even the silliest of relationships on television, in movies, in books. I rooted for Cory and Topanga when I couldn't have been more than 10 years old. Growing up, I spent my time daydreaming about my handsome prince that would one day find me, and our subsequent fairytale wedding. You know, typical girl stuff.

But now that I'm 21 and actually at an age where I could find my handsome prince, I find that my expectations are a little bit skewed.  I see that cute boy in class, and I even talk to him a few times - just enough to develop a little crush. When he starts sitting by me regularly, my imagination goes into overdrive. I convince myself it's pretty much love, and that he'll soon ask me out with some grand gesture. On the first date we'll know it's a forever kind of deal, and we'll get married and live happily ever after, obviously! I anxiously await the next class when surely his grand gesture will occur. But when the class finally rolls around again, he chooses to sit in the row behind me, next to a different girl. A very pretty girl.  And though he doesn't ask her out either, I find myself feeling defeated, thinking that I'll never find my prince charming; all because of one silly crush that nothing came of.  Ridiculous.

When I really think about marriage and eternity and all that, I feel pretty terrified, immature, and not ready. But on the other hand, I also long for that eternal companionship.  I long to find the person I'll want to talk to all the time about anything and everything, the person that will want to be with me for the rest of forever.

My dad always says, "you have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince".  And while sometimes it seems like I have (figuratively... and literally) kissed enough frogs already, and I'll never find my guy, I DO have faith that he is out there somewhere. When I feel discouraged and think that he'll never show up, I have to remind myself that I shouldn't waste my life away wishing he was here already. Even on days like today when I'm feeling particularly impatient, I can still be happy while I'm waiting for him to come around.  And I can work in the meantime to make sure I'm the best version of me that I can be.

There won't be any fireworks or a choir of angels singing when I meet him.  It won't be the kind of thing where we lock eyes in an airport and know we're MFEO (made for each other). He won't be perfect, and neither will I. But I'll be able to tell him anything, and he will listen, and he will care, and he will want to hang out with me for the rest of forever. We won't be in love in a movie, but we'll be in love in our own way.

1 comment:

kylee said...

first time ever? meg & tom are hollywood's finest couple & sleepless in seattle is one of their bests. have you seen an affair to remember? it's the move that sleepless is based off of, the even refer to it in the movie. thank you for this post. for reassuring me that i'm not the only girl who sometimes lacks patience in the dating/marriage department. it's good to know i'm not alone.